Today was very disappointing

i know i’m being spoiled. 

i can’t help it.

Linh got me stockings and a birthday card. along with Nell’s “Slip Away” and poster. I can’t believe she wrote me a paragraph. I almost cried. 

the first thing my father said to me this morning when i was at the orthodontist which he asked me if i was going to sahar’s house today.

he didn’t even wish me a happy birthday.

the second time he called me when he called me at work was,  ”what’s linh’s license plate number?” still no birthday wish.

i received so many birthday wishes at ahmer’s party… 

I didn’t really do anything there. i wanted to sleep. while everybody left for the “nerf war,” Sahar, Ivy, Emilie, and I just talked about people we hated.

at 6, my dad picked me up.

still no “happy birthday”

we went to olivia and evelyn’s dance recital. then to the Tan Tan in Uptown for dinner. 

I had a really bad headache, and i was tired.

We ate Linh and Nathan’s leftover cake as my birthday cake.

My dad always forgets to get me anything. Even my sister told me that he didn’t get me anything at all.

I don’t know why Di Giao and Di Huong got mad at me for not opening Di huong’s gift. (which was obviously not a macbook pro or anything of the brand) Di Giao made me hug Di Huong and said I dont’ know why you didn’t want to open it.

In the car, my dad asked me what was my problem and his new wife gave me 2 100 dollar bills. (HER money) we went home and my dad asked me what was wrong and said “Happy Birthday, Baby.”

I opened Di Huong’s present. It was a birthday card. it said, “Happy Sweet 16th Thi!! We love you!” with a 100 dollar bill attached.

They gave it no thought, no effort, whatsoever.

Nobody wanted to spend any time with me. 

Nobody wanted to speak to me personally.

I’m just so fucking disappointed. 

What was I hoping for?

Not because of the presents. But because all of these were just brush off gifts. They probably gave no thought into it whatsoever. Just, “Oh, I’ll just slap a couple of hundred dollar bills to this card, haha, yeah, she’ll appreciate it.”

I just want to be loved and appreciated.

Mommy. You missed so many things. You missed Linh’s graduation. You missed us growing up. I wish you were here. 

Some fucking Sweet 16.

went out jogging but saw somebody who made me turn around. 

fuck. 

seriously. come on. it’s my fucking birthday. stop ruining my life for once.

ugh. 

Ugh. Today was fun.

Watched the Class of 2012 graduate today. Jesus it was intense. Especially at the part where they move their tassels from the right to left. ughghhghhh.

I’m so proud of you, Sister. You made it!! 

My dad got her a car as a graduation present. 

Ahhhh.

Honda Civic. lol

Saw Reuben after. Ugh. I’m pretty sure he hates my guts. He said hi and something about being hot and then I punched him in the arm and then Jade said, oooohhh thiiiiiiii. omg. I saw him walk before the ceremony and he looked at me and his expression made my heart sink. :I

Apparently, Marlon is friends with Nathan. He saw me and was like. THI. and I just stood there and said. MARLON. and we did that for a while. Then I took pictures of him. haha. he’s adorable.

went home after for a bit then left to go to Kim Son for Graduation Dinnah partay, y0.

It was really cold. 

Di Huong got Linh a freaking Macbook Pro. hhaha. I freaking told you, Linh. She’s so fucking rich, my aunt. 

I got 40 dollars from Di Giao. idk why she gave it to me so early though. 

But really. I think they went overboard. All of those nice gifts my sister got today were nice, but they made me feel disappointed, I mean, it was Nathan’s birthday and he didn’t really get anything nice. he got a GPS. And it’s my birthday tomorrow. like. i’ll probably get some fucking t-shirts or something. I probably won’t even get 100 dollars. my dad gave linh 500 dollars. nathan and justin gave her 100 dollars. 

If I become Summa Cum Laude I wonder if i could get even more money. 

I really want to focus on my studies next year. especially since I don’t have friends anymore. why not beat everybody while they’re trying to have a social life?

went home and ate cake since we forgot it at the house. then nathan and justin went home. (around 10)

I’m really tired. But Justin said that he’d call me at 12 to say happy birthday. 35 more minutes.

p.s. i didn’t get to bleach my hair but whatevs.

lol. wearing Jade’s sweater from the Dallas trip.